March 24th, 2008

Hit Bottom and Can't get out of it...can't help but sabotage myself

Hi, this is new for me..this whole im going to post and get feedback on the fact that I can't for the life of me fix my weight proble. I used to be really good at this, had all the energy in the world and stayed in the same weight range for years even though I didn't like it but it wasn't horrible. This year I do not know what happened I can't lose the weight and I have no motivation when it comes to actually executing hte plan..and to top it off it makes me ridiculously disgusted with myself...so thats me and how I feel in a nutshell

I'm 19 and will be 20 in a few months and for all I know today I could weigh between 155 and 160 something..god I don't even want to think that. I am 5'5" am muscular with a gut and went pant shopping the other day and found out I went up a size that I haven't been in 4 yrs...HELP I just need some good feedback and I hope this isn't too overbearing but I even tried starting a new leaf today and already screwed up..

Sorry if this is super whiny....lol

~J
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